Sunday, May 3, 2009

Lazy Sunday





I'm still freaking out. Thursday (the neurologist appt) can't come fast enough. I'm a roller coaster . . . one minute, I look at her and just know that everything is going to be fine, and then the horrible "what if's" creep in the next minute. How do you stop that?

In spite of me being a mess, the three of us had a nice day - grocery shopping in the morning (with Sam in the carrier on my chest), a walk in the afternoon, lots of naps together.

After our walk, I took her out of the carrier and laid her on the couch on a blanket while I took the carrier off me. She was WIPED out and stayed sleeping like this, glasses and hat on, for 30 minutes. Oh and the second pictures, she's sound alseep . . . her favorite place to nap -- on a boppy in one of our laps.

She's so beautiful. She HAS to be okay! Has to has to has to. I am trying to keep myself together. I don't want Brian to feel like he has to take care of me. I know he's worried about me, and I feel like that's not fair . . . but I don't know how not to worry like this! He let me sleep in this am, and got up with the Bean. I love watching him with her. I love being the "three" of us. Nothing has ever felt so wonderful and right. I just want Thursday to come . . . and to have some answers!

3 comments:

Bev Rivera said...

You have a beautiful family. May you continuously be blessed and I will pray for nothing but the best for your family and the upcoming appointment. Stay positive and keep giving your precious angel lots of love :)

Elisa said...

You missed spending all day with her while you were working, so God gave you this time for BEAN time! Don't hope Thursday comes soon, take the time to enjoy her 24/7 while you can! She's going to be fine and then back to work you go!

Praying for you guys!
Love,
e

p.s. Such a cutie! I love the pic of her in your lap with Thor snoozin' beside you!

Melanie said...

She is beautiful Allison!! Sorry I haven't kept in touch much lately. I have been reading your blog and your emails. You have been in my thoughts a lot lately. Everything is going to be just fine!!! She is just perfect!! I know it's hard not to stress and worry, that is part of being a parent, it's just going to happen no matter how much you try not to. But things will work out just the way you want them! Enjoy the present because the days go by way to fast! love you