Wordless Wednesday (Sort of)

I can't be totally wordless, even though this picture sort of speaks for itself.

Lately, I can't stop thinking about how perfect our little Mia fits into our family. How wonderful "being four" feels. I feel like I always read things where people have a baby and then like the next day or the next week, they are saying "I already can't remember my life before him/her," and right after Mia was born, things felt hard. I was exhausted. And, I'd read stuff like that and think, "oh but I do remember life before her. I slept more. I felt pulled in fewer directions. I had more time to devote to Sam, and well, I just felt like I had my life, our life, more under control."  During those first months as a family of four, things felt crazy.  I was overwhelmed.  We were overwhelmed.  I felt guilty admitting that, like it was somehow like saying "I wish we hadn't . . . " and that's not what I meant or felt, but wow.  Things were hard. 

But now, just five point five months later, and you know what?  I remember our lives before her.  As a family of three, we were fabulous.   But, as a family of four . . . we are even moreso.  Because she is part of us.  And these two . . .

These two little girls are sisters.   And, there's nothing I love more than watching them grow. 

Last night, Mia was wearing her tye-dyed onesie and Sammie B requested to put on her matching t-shirt.  When Mia was at day care the other day, Sammie B asked, all day, to go "pick Mia up!"  This morning, I told Sammie B I was going to take Mia to her "baby school" (that's what I've been calling day care) and then go to work and Sammie B said "how about we all go to baby school?"

I'll admit it.  By having another, I worried so much about what that could take away from our Sammie B.  My first-born.  How I'd feel pulled in different directions and whether that would keep me from giving Sammie B all that she needed.  But now?  Now, I get it.  Mia won't "take" anything from Sammie B.  Instead, our girls are amazing gifts to each other.  Sisters.