I am so so grateful for all of the encouraging texts, messages and comments I got from my last post. Sammie B inspires many, doesn't she?
Admitting when things are hard is part of who I am. I am not one to sugar coat things, and I always feel immensely better after admitting I'm in a bad spot. But, this journey is a roller coaster, and in the rougher spots, I have to remind myself, "this too shall pass."
We had a wonderful family weekend. B's dad - Sammie B's Papa - was visiting, and it was just what I needed. The magical thing about having one of Sammie B's grandparents around is watching HER with THEM and THEM with HER. Enjoying her for the wonderful, amazing little girl she is, marveling at all of her "cans" and not focusing on the "can'ts." Just enjoying our girl's sweet disposition, magical giggle, and amazing sense of humor. And, Papa did just that this weekend, and it was just what I needed.
Plus, Sammie B has just been the sweetest, most loving little thing EVER lately. On my Tuesday off with her yesterday, as we were driving away from her pre-school, on our way to her hippotherapy, we were dancing along with the radio, and out of nowwhere, she said, "happy." I turned around and said, "did you just say 'happy?'" and she said, sheepishly, "yeah!" I asked, "Do you feel happy right now, dancing with Mama?" And she said with such excitement and glee "YEAH!"
Me too, sweet girl. Me too.
Then, when we were sitting in our car together having a snack waiting for her time at hippotherapy, I touched my forehead to hers and said, "I love you boo-bah-loo." And she put her little hands on my cheeks, said "boo-bah-loo" and pulled me in for a kiss. I melted right there. On the spot.
So, although I KNOW this, its easy to get caught up in life and forget it: Our life is not measured in good or bad therapy days, weeks or whatever. It is measured in the happy moments. Sammie B reminds me of that all the time. And for that, I'm so so grateful.
Life is hard. But in between all the "hard," there's a whole lot of happy, brought to us courtesy of my magical little Sammie B.